Don't know why you say "goodbye", I say "hello"

Goodbye 2010!  It's hard to let you go because you were filled with so many wonderful memories; so many of my favorite things:  A year filled with Disney - backstage magic, parades, Fantasmic!, character visits, studios, etc.  A year filled with family and friends.  A year full of new exploits - the beach, California temples, the aquarium, making new friends, etc.  My new friends.  Some I know I'll forget in seasons to come... some friendships that will last forever. 

So hello to 2011!  What will you bring?  Will you bring joy?  Accomplishment?  Lasting relationships?  Yes.  No questions asked, this is my year.  I will no longer waste hours on Facebook and YouTube.  I will be up and doing.  I will set and accomplish goals.  These will be realistic goals, those within my reach.

Goals:
Be active. - At least 30 minutes spent doing something active 3 days a week.  At least.
Eat right. - Apply those ideas I've learned in Nutrition.  Should be easy to do!
Make friends! - Talk to someone new every week.  I need to stop being so shy.
Do well in classes. - Do homework/study each week.
SAVE MONEY! - Stop random spending, particularly on fast food. 

Okay, it might take a few trial and error periods, but I really want to become accomplished this year.  I CAN do this! :D

Christmas Break :)

This week I had the opportunity to go to Disneyland for a few days, getting home the day before Christmas Eve.  I declined the airfare, the discounted hotel, and chose to hold onto my free tickets to the park for a later time.  The entire trip would have cost around $150 (including food and perhaps a souvenir).  I realize I am a complete fool for not jumping at the opportunity.  I have been stuck at home for the past 2 days due to snow, and am even more upset with myself that I didn't go to enjoy the warmth of Southern California.  However, reading and rereading posts on Facebook from some old friends who work at the Resort, I realize I did make a good choice.  It's been raining like crazy in Anaheim!  Of course, that is a great time to go because there are practically no lines for any attraction...

But the rain is not the only good reason I decided to delay my trip.  I want to save up to go later in the year, perhaps taking my roommates with me (one in particular because she's never experienced the Magic).  I also realize that I want to go at a time when I'm absolutely SICK of the snow and cold.  Right now, I'm just getting excited for a White Christmas!

Which brings me to my next train of thought:  CHRISTMAS!  I am so excited that Christmas is almost here!  My favorite holiday. :)  Why?  Getting presents?  Certainly not.  (Christmas morning and opening gifts is always fun, but that's not what it's about.)  Giving?  Yes.  I love shopping and finding the perfect gift for friends, family members, and other loved ones.  I love shopping for others!  But that's not all.  Celebrating Christ's birth?  Of course!  That's the reason for the season.  I love going to Sacrament meeting for the Christmas program.  In fact, I love it so much, I went to 2.  (Unintentionally, but so worth it!)  One of my best guy friends played the piano in his single's ward (along with singing in the choir and another girl played the harp... so beautiful!)  Santa?  YES!  Love him.  The whole season?  That's the reason.  I love the upbeat attitude of everyone.  The songs on the radio, the cheesy movies on TV, the cheery attitude of passersby... yes there is stress and people going crazy looking for the right gifts, store clerks getting more and more frustrated, etc.  But that doesn't matter.  It's so small in comparison.  Christmas brings people together.  Family and friends.  I LOVE CHRISTMAS!

Happiest Christmas on Earth!

So... I very well could be spending the week up until Christmas at the Happiest Place on Earth!  I have the best cousin in the world. (Well, actually I have quite a few of the greatest cousins... but this one might be able to get me out to California December 20-23 (1 or 2 days at Disneyland!)  I am really excited!  It would be the perfect celebration to finishing up the semester and celebrating in the best possible way!  I am soo excited!

I better start selling some plasma so I can afford rent for the month and a hotel for 3 days!  (Oh man, the cost will probably be identical.)

Sorry the post is so short tonight... but it's very late and I am just so scatter-brained right now.  AH!

Wrapping up

The end of the semester is here and finals are upon us.  I hope I do well on Nutrition and Living Prophets at least.  I'd like to do well in Music Civ, but who really knows about how that will go... It's crazy.  I've done a little bit of studying, but nowhere near enough.  I should probably get on that...

My Disney fast is coming to an end too.  That didn't really work out... not that I couldn't go without Disney, but honestly, I don't think it's really something anyone could do.  Disney kind of just screams in your face.  But I did prove what I meant to:  I'm not addicted to Disney youtube videos, TV, or movies.  Now to celebrate, what should I do?  Watch The Santa Clause?  Yes.

I'm also wrapping up Christmas presents!  Yes, Christmas is here!  I'm almost ready... just need to buy one more present and mail another to my bestest friend Sam!  I miss her. 

And finally, I'm wrapping up the year.  I've failed at so many of my New Year's resolutions, but this year I will make them much more realistic and accomplishable? 

Lack of Disney, Lack of Love

Why am I on this stupid Disney fast?  Why on earth would I pick NOW to do it?  I've been extremely down in the dumps lately, and I have nothing to get me out of this terrible trap.  Finals are coming up and I am very unprepared, but do I study now that I have time away from Disney-relations?  No, of course not.  I just have more time to stress.  I'm skint-broke and now that I have more time do I use it to find a better job?  No.  I use it to drive around and waste gas, thus causing me to become even more broke. 

It's not that I CAN'T go without Disney (because I'm really fine, I'm not getting withdrawls or anything), it's just that I'm becoming a terribly cranky person because my normal way to cheer myself up is gone. (Ya, that does sound kind of like an addict, but I swear, that's not the way I mean it.)  Disney brings joy to everyone.  It doesn't really hurt anyone.

Don't worry, I'm not giving up on my fast, I'm just complaining.  I have nothing positive to focus on right now.  No Disney, no boyfriend, not even a date.  (Ya, ok, Christmas is coming up, but I'm broke, so really, what can I do to get into Christmas spirits?) 

That's the truth about this blog post.  It's not so much that I need Disney... I just need a guy.  Not neccessarily any specific guy, but I need a date.  It's killing me that I've not been asked out on a single date since... what... Jr. Prom?  Yep.  I have been asked out on a grand total of 2 dates in my LIFE.  Do you understand now why I'm a little bitter?

And I know this is getting selfish of me, but it's also getting to where I can't even stand listening to my roommates talk about their guy problems... or guy successes (? for want of a better word).  I can't be in the same room as them when they all get together and talk about this kind of stuff.  I usually lock myself in my room and try to sleep it off, or I go for a drive (no matter how late at night).  I wouldn't mind so much... if I had anything to contribute.  But I'm probably the last girl on earth you want to discuss your love life with.  What do you honestly think I can say? 

Can anyone explain to me why I can't get a date?  Why I can't get a guy to even ask me out?  Why I spend EVERY night home alone?  Is there something so objectionable about me?  Do I really distance myself that much from guys?  Lately I thought I had been making progress...  Obviously not enough progress.

Maybe it's my negative attitude which I've expressed in this blog.  Maybe that's all guys see in me.  Though I try to be upbeat and optimistic most of the time.  I'm generally quite a happy person... but right now all I see is negativity in my life.

Reminder: My life is NOT run by a mouse!

So after last night's 3-ish hours of watching youtube videos of Peter Pan, Alice, and the Mad Hatter in Disneyland I've come to the conclusion that... well... I've become addicted to Disney.  Particularly Disneyland, and the fact that I'm not living in California does not change it one bit.  I obsess over other people's enjoyment of the Resort and live vicariously through videos posted on youtube of different oddities and character-stalking through the park. 

This CAN'T go on.  Today, I make that change.  I will no longer constantly think, plan vacations to, watch videos, and talk about Disneyland.  For the next two weeks (until the end of semester finals, so maybe more like a week and a half) I am going on a Disney fast.

So far I have taken down all pictures and decorations Disney-related from my room and locked it all in a trunk under my bed.  I have changed the desktop background of my computer.  I have changed my profile picture on here, and facebook.  I walked out of a room where Disney music began playing (good job on that one!) and hurried to change my iPod from playing a Disney tune.  Today has been going well!

Here are some of the details of my fast:
No Disney music :(
No Disney channel (that I can live with... except Phineas and Ferb. ha!)
No Disney pictures online (if a friend posts them on facebook I must navigate away from the page)
No Disney youtube videos (AAAAHHHH!!!!)
No Disney movies (oh crap.)
No talking about Disney... not even one story about anything that happened to me at the Resort... even including work
No going into the Disney Store at the mall (NOOOO!!!!)

Nothing.  Nothing Disney-related.  This blog post is even cutting it close... but this is my last Disney-related ANYTHING for 2 (ok, maybe just 1 1/2) weeks!  I'll keep updating on how I'm doing!  Oh man!

And again... my life is NOT run by a mouse!